Footnotes: cant believe how long this has taken me. I also cant believe how shit I feel. its incredible. I hate everything about my life now. I hate being surrounded by retards, I hate not having anyone at all to speak to only enemies, I hate the idea that i'll have to spend the rest of my life alone and that its only all going to get much worse, and what I really hate is how the summer is being wasted again, yet another year of shit. Its like watching my life in slow motion dying. One thing that really gets me is that now I know what shit memories are i'm more aware of them happening. Like wasted days of my past wandering around on my own in hell but then I didn't know so I would sort of do whatever. I'm thinking about a lot of places but mainly how you go to the shops and when you look at it its like who ever is 'managing' you is responsible for that like they walk a dog that needs air. I wish I had never gone out. I think if your unhappy you have to make sure everyone knows. It sounds shit, but if you dont they'll try to sell it to you like you want it. For example, my life is shit. I need a girlfriend, but thats not going to happen because England is fucking me over. I want to leave this shit country. All my neighbours are assholes and retards. I remember how they told me in my head that if i wouldn't move to hell then they would meove hell to me.
Anyway, one of the reasons I have ruched this piece through is because I want to get started on MY WORLD IN SILENCE. I sort of want to do it without words as I such at narritives but I dont think I can make it say what i want in just pictures. Anyway, i cant be assed to write more.